Fear. Fear is what stops us from being our true selves. I've been doing some major self-reflecting lately and I am quickly realizing that what is holding me back in life is fear. The fear of being judged, the fear of failing, the fear of life not being exactly how I pictured it would be. But if I continue to let it hold me back I will never succeed.
Right now I am still in that state of not knowing what I am doing. I have a lot of hobbies and passions, and it has been hard figuring out how to turn these into a career. My goal still is to go back to performing arts. So I have the end goal set, and now I have to fit the pieces of the puzzles together to create the right path to get there. Where do I even begin?
My living situation sure isn’t helping me. But as for the time being that won’t be changing. So I have to make the best of my situation and use the resources I do have. That being social media. Right now, exposure is everything. I’ve learned that it doesn’t matter how many people see you, it only matters if the RIGHT person sees you. The one that sees potential in you and can help your career. I personally love social media. I love photography and making videos. I’m a very creative person so creating concepts and visions for photos and videos makes me happy. But here is where fear comes into play.
I find myself not posting or promoting videos and photos I take and film. I am scared of being made fun of. With the rise of “influencers”, people now assume anyone posting pictures related to fashion or creating youtube videos are just individuals wanting attention from their peers. But my intentions are to use these platforms to further my career, and unfortunately many of the things I love are perceived by others as me looking for attention and validation. I genuinely love making and editing videos. I love fashion and makeup. Getting past the fear of being judged is an internal battle, even though I know it is necessary.
So this is me speaking it into existence. I will get over my fears. I will never be happy and successful until I do. Many odds are stacked against me, but I will defeat them. I am no longer saying “I hope”. I am saying that I WILL.
So for any of you struggling with fear controlling your life, make the changes you need to in order to succeed. Change your mindset, your attitude, and your actions. Be the change. YOU are the only person holding you back.
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